Pooping while standing

It doesn’t matter if I’m sitting, squatting, or lying down, it is hard for me to poop. I have to push and grunt. My face turns red as it gets all scrunched up. Sometimes it is so hard to poop that I’m brought to tears and cry out in pain. It passes, but I wish I didn’t have to go through all that. I tried pooping while standing, thinking that maybe that would make it easier. It didn’t really improve anything. It was still hard to push and it still hurt a little. Poor me.