As I mentioned before, I no longer to go bed peacefully. I cry when it is time to go to bed and cry when I’m put to bed. After a few minutes of crying in my crib I am able to wind myself down and go to sleep, usually within 10 to 15 minutes. This shows that my sleep training worked and I am able to get a decent night’s sleep. But the process leading up to bedtime is becoming more traumatic.
First I cried when put in my crib. Then I cried when we entered the bedroom. Then I cried when carried toward the bedroom. We thought it was bad when I cried when told “bedtime”, but it actually got worse. I have a cup of milk and am read a book just before I brush my teeth and then go to bed. Today I absolutely freaked out when I was offered my milk. I like milk, but my mind jumped ahead to the coming bedtime and I was really sad. I actually panicked and through a tantrum. Daddy had to hold me tightly and so that I wouldn’t hurt myself as Mommy found some music to help calm me down. Eventually I calmed down, had my milk, book, brushed teeth, and went to bed safely. I also fell asleep relatively quickly.
That is where we are now. I know my routine so well that steps leading up to bedtime can trigger a crying fit. Daddy mentioned that if gets any worse one day I’m going to wake up in the morning at start crying because I know 14 hours later I will have to go to bed. Let’s hope it doesn’t come to that.